I am going through a rather difficult time, well for the last year. My wife and I moved to a new city and live with my parents. The purpose was to start a business with my dad. 8 months after the business opened, and we're looking at selling or closing. I have taken another day job to make some money, and work at the family business after hours. My wife expects that I should be happy with my new job, but all I can think of is I had to take the new job because the family business is failing. On top of all, my wife of two years and I are living with my parents in a small house, and there is rarely a time or place to be unbothered for more than a minute.
I have discovered that my wife thinks I am constantly irritated or angry, and she is on eggshells when I'm around. I find myself thinking judgemental and hateful things about people who perpetrate evil. Not that I want to do violence to them, or that I even think it, but that I do not pray for their salvation.
I find I am equally hard on myself. My disdain for others actually perpetuates disdain for myself. I dislike myself because I dislike others. I want to love others, and I want to know that I love others.
My mind is mush. It's time for bed. Please pray for me.


